I had it all, cause I had you
I fucked it up, I wish I knew
That this is hell that I put you through
I told you that I tried but that wasn't true

I'm filthy but coming clean
Make myself sick, yeah it's a disease
No I don't want no sympathy
And now I'm just a memory

Drink to numb the pain till I'm sober
Sleep until this bad dream is over
Don't call me a disgrace
Not proud of my mistakes
Show me there's a way that life's not over
If I wake up sober

I'm sorry for, not pulling through
Didn't realize, what I had with you
Was it love I was searching for
Hurt like hell to watch you walk out the door

I'm filthy but coming clean
Make myself sick, yeah it's a disease
No I don't want no sympathy

Drink to numb the pain till I'm sober
Sleep until this bad dream is over
Don't call me a disgrace
Not proud of my mistakes
Show me there's a way that life's not over
If I wake up sober

Safe to say I'm not okay
Your heart's in a different place
Didn't wanna turn the page
But things are better off this way

Drink to numb the pain until I'm sober
Sleep until this bad dream is over
Don't call me a disgrace
Not proud of my mistakes
Show me there's a way that life's not over
If I wake up sober

(Safe to say I'm not okay)
If I wake up sober
(Your heart's in a different place)

I'm filthy but coming clean
Make myself sick, yeah it's a disease (if I wake up sober)
No I don't want no sympathy
And now I'm just a memory